I Feel Good

    I was sharply awaken in the cabin, no transitional half-awaken state at all. The cabin was completely dark, but my mind was crystal clear as though it were instantly switched on. This was the first time I felt energized after sleeping on the liveaboard ship.


    I started this trip the other day. I was the only instructor and I had to be the trip director as well. I was busy to switch between these two roles. When I checked the passenger list for the next day in the wheelhouse, skipper Wade happened to pass by.

    'Do you want my suggestion?' Wade said. He liked to give guidance probably because he got satisfaction from that. 'When Lucas comes tomorrow, ask him to be the trip director.' he continued.

    'Yeah, I count on him.' I had known dive master Lucas would come tomorrow afternoon. But, I knew he did not like to take over the trip director role in the middle of a day. It would not be fair to ask him to do trip director's job if he would not be paid as a trip director on that day. I probably had to be the trip director until the day after tomorrow.

    Next morning I was fully occupied because I was the only instructor. I taught advanced course and dived three times in the morning. I was told that skipper wanted to see me when I came back from my fourth dive in the late afternoon. I met Wade in the hallway, but he did not speak until we were alone in the wheelhouse.

    'What did I tell you to ask Lucas to be the trip director?' he questioned.

    'Lucas does not like to be the trip director right away...' I explained.

    'What I told you is not a fucking choice. It doesn't matter if he likes it or not.' Wade commanded.

    'Got it. I will ask him to be the trip director.' I answered.

    Right after I left the wheelhouse, I asked Lucas to meet me in the office. I might not be able to command him as the way Wade had done, but I could let him know it was Wade's command.

    'I know you don't like to be the trip director right away, but...' I said.

    'No, no, it's okay.' he interrupted me. Obviously, he also knew that Wade was not happy that I was still the trip director.

    Then, we discussed the remaining tasks and he took over as a trip director within minutes. It's a huge relief for me. I did not feel bad at all even the skipper had just sworn at me.


    Now I felt energized after sleeping. I still had not recovered from a cold and I still had to work all day long. But, I felt good this morning.

    The photo was the sunrise this morning.